It was a brief conversation and for some reason it really hit home with me…

Him: “Are you going to introduce me?”

Her:  “Oh you’ve met her before haven’t you?”

Him:  “I remember beauty when I see it…I haven’t met her before.”

Me:  *psshhh* “Oh come ON now!”

Him:  “Did you just ‘Oh come ON!’ me?”

Me:  “I did!”

Him:  “Sheesh, I try and give a compliment and she gives me attitude!”

Me:  “Yeah…that’s just how I roll”  And I walked away laughing to see what Austin was doing outside.  I came back in the kitchen…

Him:  “I’m old fashioned you know…”

Me:  “Oh you are huh, well that’s cool.” (Shuddup, I know I’m smooth!)

Him:  “Yeah I believe that beauty isn’t only skin deep, it’s what’s on inside that counts.  THAT is what’s important.  I truly believe that.”

Me:  “Yeah, I agree with you.”

That whole conversation was a little on the awkward side for me but in the end I kind of appreciated it.  I know I can be a total dork and this is post isn’t a fraction as interesting as some of the stuff I read about making a difference in peoples lives, but for some reason it affected me…

Thank you, whatever your name is, I’m sure I’ll see you around sometime.  I might end up saying thank you to your face…you just never know.

Now THAT my friends is lazy.  It’s 82° and I’m thinking that’s just too damn hot to be cooking in the house.  Oh well, at least we ate something right?!

Whatever, I’m babbling like an idiot again…

I signed Shea up for camp this year, it’s a 3 day, 2 night camp and I think she’ll have a lot of fun.  I’m hoping that she won’t have any issues being away from us for a couple of nights and that we don’t end up getting called to pick her up in the middle of the night cuz she’s flippin’ her lid.  That’d just suck, especially since we plan on being in Seattle! LMAO!

I’ve been sucking beyond belief on the blog front…I’m behind with a few of you, I hope you aren’t getting pissed at me.  As the days get nicer, I tend to do more and more stuff around here and venture outside more often.

I got my order from Old Navy yesterday, between the UPS man and the FedEx guy I could have myself quite the threesome.  ROFLMAO!  Ok, that really amused me… Anyhow…I ordered a swimsuit *gasp!* and it was actually too big.  I know right!  I couldn’t beleive it either.  I figured that if I ordered a bigger size that maybe my damn boobs would fit in.  I think it would have taken 4 of my boobs to fill it out, it was that bad.  Conveinently the UPS guy showed up today to deliver something for Heather (who lives in Canada and is coming to see me on the 4th!) so I was able to give him my return!  Yay for me having a brain!

It’s either the heat or the Mike’s Hard Lemonade or both, but I’m getting a headache.  And I’m tired.  I want a nap.  6:30 on a Friday night and I’m bitchin’ about a damn nap…I must be getting old.

2am, car alarms, yelling, dog barking…

Some asshat stole a car, was chased down by the cops, ran into our neighbors car, and was about to be eaten by the police dog if he made a move.  The other dude that was in the car took off…who knows if they ever found him.

It turns out that dude just got out of Juvi a week ago and decided that stealing a car would be a fantastic idea.  Fucking idiot.  I was kinda hoping that someone was gonna get shot.  That’d be exciting! LOL!  I’m so rude.  I would have actually been scared shitless if I heard/saw someone get shot.

Of course after all that excitement we had a hard time falling asleep.

I was so tired this morning too, I didn’t get up till 10…and that was only because Shea came in and woke me up! lol

I started the day off all sorts of wrong this morning.

The phone rang at 7:15 and it was my brother-in-law Sam letting me know that Debbie was trying to drop Noah off but we didn’t answer the door.  Thankfully Claude was still home because I wasn’t dressed and I was still 90% asleep.

I fired off a premature email, resulting in complete and utter chaos.  I can be so stupid sometimes.

The preschool called to discuss some things with me about next year and Kalayah ran in the house screaming “Shea called me fat!!!” at the top of her lungs.  Then my cell rang, then I was getting another call on the home phone all in the span of 30 seconds.  Disastrous.

We’ve had the weirdest damn weather around here lately…I sent Shea to school with a sweatshirt and a coat for field day since the weather is so damn unpredictable…and she came home in a t-shirt bitching about being too hot.  The sun is out and it’s beautiful!!!  Tomorrow she gets to go to the beach for a field trip, she’s excited and I’m debating on what to send with her for lunch.  I think I need to go to Wal-Mart.  Maybe I’ll do that after Noah goes home.  There’s no since in wrangling 4 kids around the store when I can wait awhile.  Hell, I might even wait until Claude gets home and just take Shea with me.  That sounds like the best plan, we’ll go with that one.

Yesterday I fought with the router and modem enough to make someone want to hang themselves.  The day before I lost count after 8 router resets.  What a bunch of bullshit.  I ended up going to Comcast and exchanging my modem thinking that maybe that would solve the problem.  I’m going to get a new router here in the next few days too.

My bio Dad is coming over the dinner Saturday, I’m pretty excited about it!  I hope the kids aren’t completely annoying and that other company doesn’t decide to show up at the same time.

Enough with my random self…I’m gonna go find something to smile about now!

Chocolate Crunch Brownies

1 cup butter
2 cups sugar

4 eggs

6 T baking cocoa
1 cup flour
2 t vanilla
1/2 t salt

Pour into a greased 13×9 pan
350 degrees for 25 minutes

Spread 1 jar of marshmallow cream over cooled brownies.

In a small pan, melt:
2 cups semi sweet chocolate chips
1 cup creamy peanut butter
stir in 3 cups of rice krispies

Spread over marshmallow layer and chill before cutting.

Store in refrigerator.

If you are all about shortcuts and don’t want to make the brownie part, just use a boxed recipe (like I did, but make SURE it’s a 13×9 recipe!) and make the topping.

They are fantastic!!!!

My cousin Kyla sent me this message tonight….I felt I needed to share:

Isn’t that just awesome!  I told her that I had to blog it. lol

Here’s is Kyla and her fiance Jonathan…she may or may not kill me for this!

Friday we decided to start cleaning since we were having people over for a bbq Saturday. Claude went outside and mowed the yard, I cleaned up the living room and sent the kids up to bed. I left the laundry in my room since I didn’t want the typical heap sitting in front of the back door when company was around.

Saturday morning after I got out of the shower I heard music playing, I looked out the playroom window and Claude was outside raking the grass and had setup the radio (that was in the garage since we bought this new entertainment center that holds nothing more than the T.V. itself, the DVD player, cable box and X-Box). I heard Shea singing along to Diary of Jane by Breaking Benjamin which gave me a good laugh.

I came downstairs and started cleaning again. Claude swept, emptied the dishwasher and then went up to take a nap since he wasn’t feeling well. My mom came and picked the kids up, all three of them since Grannie wasn’t feeling well enough to watch Austin. I dusted, cleaned the windows, mopped the kitchen floor and then Claude got up so we could go to the store.

Brenda, Robin and Dean, Brian and Brianne, and their 4 friends all had a great time at the bbq. The guys cooked the burgers and hot dogs, Robin made and awesome pasta salad and brought some chips. We drank a few beers, had some good laughs and of course Robin suggested the group pic (which only consisted of us 4 “regulars”):

Then she took a picture of me taking a picture of her:

While we were eating the stupid smoke detectors went off. I figured it was because of the grill but all the upstairs windows were shut so I ended up yanking a couple batteries out of the alarms to get them to shut up. We were gone no more than 30 minutes when we both had calls on our cell phones, 1 from an out of town number and the other from my parents number. I didn’t hear mine since the first band was warming up but Claude came over to me and said something about having to go home because the fire department was trying to get into our house. GREAT.

He had less than an hour before their band was gonna play so he hauled ass home, let the fire department in, they pulled down all the smoke detectors and put up a temporary. Stupid things.

The show was awesome!!! HEROES for GHOSTS kicked some serious ass. Despite the mic being a bitch a couple of times their set rocked! Here’s a video that Brian and/or Brianne made (Brian is the guitarist, Brianne is his wife), since it won’t let me embed it, go check it out here!!!

Here are a couple pics from our friends band I BÖRJAN:

Sunday “morning”, approx. 12:15 I heard Claude getting in the bath. I just KNEW that my parents would show up while he was in there, leaving me to get my ass out of bed to let them in. Sure enough, 12:35 my dad called “Get your butt down here so we can drop your kids off!” So on went the robe and down the stairs I went. Half awake.

Then we all went back upstairs and I layed on the bed for awhile. Claude got the girls started cleaning their room, then he went in and helped them while I put laundry away and changed the sheets on our bed. After they were “done” I went in there and finished up, then cleared a path through the playroom in order to get into Austins room to vacuum. I got downstairs at 3pm, scarfed down a couple hot dogs and headed to the store for Grannie.

Monday morning after dropping Shea off, Kalayah, Austin and I headed across town to her end of the year picnic. They planted their pumpkins in the community garden, we ate lunch and then walked to the 7th Street Sweet Shoppe for an ice cream cone. $10 and 3 cones later we walked back to the car.

After getting home I realized that I needed to go to Wal-Mart, and even though Claude had stayed home I took Kalayah and Austin with me. I picked up a few things for Grannie there too, so after picking Shea up from school we drove up to her house and hung out for an hour or so. Came home, folded clothes, made dinner, cleaned the kitchen, folded more clothes.

ACK! Make it stop!

See? I’ve been busy. Hahaha! This has got to be the most boring post on the internet, but whatever.

I went and picked Claude up from work today and on the drive home I thought about how nice it would be to just go somewhere and stay the night.  Just get away, out of the house, away from it all.  The only place I’d feel comfortable enough to completely chill out and relax would be my parents house.  I could sit outside with a cup of coffee, read a book, take pictures, just live.  For a day.

My head hurts.

I can’t go though.  We have company coming tomorrow.  I thought they were going to be staying overnight but plans have changed.  I really don’t know what the hell is going on.  We were all supposed to meet up and have a bbq, at who’s how I don’t know.  We never decided on that either! lol

The kids are so on my nerves today.  Kalayah is crying about anything and everything, Austins nose wont stop running and when it runs he cries and pitches a bitch about it.  Shea had a doctors appointment today because she keeps complaining about headaches.

The doctor said that according to her symptoms and the lack of severity, that she’s ok for now, but if she starts throwing up and basically shows signs of a migraine then we’ll do further testing.  I’m going to make her an appointment with the eye doctor again just to be on the safe side.  Last time she had perfect vision, so that’s good.

I’m going to go now before my head ’splodes.

Tesa tagged me…so I feel obligated. Thanks…..beyotch!

EIGHT THINGS FOR WHICH I HAVE PASSION:

1. Music. There’s nothing better than music that goes straight to your soul, either for happiness or sadness. Music makes you feel like there’s so much life left to live and that you’re worth it. Without music, I think I would go insane.

2. Photography. When I was younger I used to take pictures of my animals, inanimate objects, and myself. A few years ago I got my first digital camera and haven’t stopped since. After realizing that I have an eye for photography and great respect for photographers I decided to take a huge step and buy a DSLR…I’m absolutely in love with my camera and I can’t imagine a life without pictures!

3. Animals. Since I was little I’ve always had a passion for animals, the typical cats, dogs and occasional bout of goldfish. Since I grew up in the country we were able to broaden my horizons by having cows, sheep, horses, geese, a pot bellied pig, and llamas. Pets certainly have a way of making you feel better and are always nice to have around when you’re lonely.

4. Grannie and Grandpa. While my Grandpa passed away in 2002, the 23 years that I had him in my life were fantastic. He took me bowling, where he’d buy me virgin Shirley Temples and give me quarters to play pin ball. He’d taking me wood cutting with him, he made the best peanut butter sandwiches and gave the best scruffy goodnight kisses ever. Grannie is always there to lend a helping hand, whether it means lending a few bucks, watching the kids, giving advice or being a temporary landlady. She’s generous, kind hearted and I love her to death. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about Grandpa…I see him in so many places and people and hear him in different sounds around me. He knows what he meant to me.

(BREATHE Tirzah…………..Breathe…)

5. Family. Of course I love my entire family, including extended family, but my immediate family is what keeps me alive. They drive me insane but they keep me alive. My kids know which buttons to push to really piss me off but they also make me proud on a daily basis. They are growing up so fast and before I know it they will be graduating, experiencing debt, loss, disappointment and love. My husband who has been there for me through the years, has seen the good, seen the bad, probably a lot of bad, dealt with a lot of shit, a lot on insecurities, but he’s still here, trying, helping how he knows how. I can’t imagine my life without my family. After all….they’ve helped make me into the insane freak that I am today.

6. Friends. Wow…where to start with this one… The online friends, the real life friends, the acquaintances, the people you see every day but don’t even talk to. You all make life a little sweeter, funner, funnier, crazy and a little dramatic and I love you all deeply. I really do.

7. Chocolate. What more is there to say….it’s chocolate, and I heart it. Big puffy heart love it.

8. Creative Outlets. Other than music and photography, I love to sing, singing could have possibly been #1 on my list to show how much I love it. I’m no professional, I don’t have any formal training, I’m sure I never will…it’s just something that I absolutely love to do. Blogging, writing, getting it all out in the open…it’s healing. Sometimes the good stuff just has to come out. It’s not only healing but it’s necessary!

EIGHT THINGS I’D LIKE TO DO BEFORE I DIE:

1. Meet my real dad.

2. Lose weight. Yeah, FAT chance of that, but I had to stick it on the list anyhow.

3. Travel. I want to go to Scotland, Ireland, and any other land out there. I just want to go…and be…and experience life.

4. Meet my half brothers. I have 2 who I’ve never talked to or know much about, but I want to…if they’ll have me in their life.

5. Stop giving a shit what other people think about me. I know who I am, I know I’m a good person and that I have awesome qualities. I need to not be so passive, say what’s on my mind and let THEM deal with it. I’m tired of dealing with it. (This one half assed [get it?! har har har] goes with #2)

6. Use some of my creative energy to improve lives.

7. Be/feel self sufficient. I don’t want to feel like I rely on other people to make me happy. I need to feel happy first…then just BE happy! =)

8. I want to meet you. I want to meet Adam, Becca and Jon and baby Izzy Bella, Claudia and her wonderful family, Jess, Kristina, baby to be and her friend Caleal, Erica, Tesa, tesco and ALa, I want to live closer to Liza, Heather and Beth.  I want to spend more time with Tiffany, Patrick and Mekhi, and even if he is inherently retarded, Alex…I have to meet Alex.

EIGHT THINGS I SAY A LOT:

1. “Dude.”

2. “Shit!’

3. “Fuck!” (I know…I’m totally going to hell huh!)

4. “GOODNIGHT KALAYAH!………..I LOVE YOU TOO KALAYAH!……GOODNIGHT KALAYAH!…..” (rinse and repeat)

5. “Knock it off….NOW!”

6. “Oh for the love of all!”

7. “I gotta pee.”

8. “What should I do for my 365?”

EIGHT BOOKS I HAVE READ RECENTLY:

By recently….I mean like the last 10 years…cuz I don’t read actual books that often…I suck.

1. She’s Come Undone by Wally Lamb

2. I Know This Much Is True by Wally Lamb

3. Dirt by Stuart Woods

4. Dead Eyes by Stuart Woods

5. New York Dead by Start Woods

6. One For The Money by Janet Evanovich

7. Henry and June… by Anais Nin

8. Incest by Anais Nin (To be fair…I’m currently reading this…in fact its been so long I had to start it OVER! lol)

EIGHT MOVIES I HAVE SEEN EIGHT TIMES:

I’m so NOT linking this time.

1. The Goonies (I love that movie!)

2. E.T.

3. I really don’t think there are any…

4. other movies…

5. that I have…

6. ever seen…

7. eight…

8. times.

EIGHT PEOPLE WHO SHOULD DO THIS MEME:

1. Claudia

2. Caleal

3. Jess

4. Kristina

5. Liza

6. Erica

7. tesco

8. Alex

Just an FYI, I didn’t proofread this, so ya know. Don’t hate.

Have you ever tried to find a schools phone number in a phone book? Literally impossible. You can’t just look under the NAME of the school, you have to look under “Schools Public” or some stupid shit like that. Then if you can’t find it there, you start hunting around in the front of the damned thing, flipping through the Government, City, State, County, Federal pages and find everything BUT the ever lovin’ school you want to call. I spend all of 10 seconds this morning looking in the phone book until I said out loud “What the fuck and I’m even bothering for? I’m just gonna look it up online, I’m sure I’ll find it in about 2 seconds!” and sure enough, I did.

I’m finally getting my ass in gear and getting Kalayah registered for preschool. Have I publicly ranted about our school district yet?

Annoyance…let me tell you about it.

Kalayah is 4 now, her birthday is Sept. 9th, which means that she misses the cutoff in order to get into Kindergarten by NINE FUCKING DAYS. 9. How ridiculous right?! So I called the school and the Superintendent and asked them what I needed to do in order to get her into school next year and they basically told me that I couldn’t unless we took her to another district. If we did that then they would have to let her into 1st grade the following year because she’d already have the Kindergarten hours “under her belt.” So after much deliberation about going with another district for a year, we decided that she’d be just fine going to preschool again and being one of the oldest in her Kindergarten class.

You know what else? Austin is going to have the SAME issue since his birthday is Sept. 15th. It’s just frustrating. I don’t want her to get bored learning the same things over and over again. Her preschool teacher told me that she’s more than ready for Kindergarten, which makes me happy to hear. Then again it’s not going to hurt her to make more friends, learn to write a little better and learn some more routine either.

Alright, I’m headed off to school to fill out an abundance of paper work. Yay!